I need to know

I have been wondering for many years now what God has in store for me. I may be blind and deaf as I am still wondering. What is it that God wants me to do? Maybe I don't know how to hear properly. Maybe that's it - I have to learn better there.

I'm getting disillusioned and unmotivated. Before this impacts significantly on my life and also before it becomes ungodly, I really need to know. Should I just leave? Should I do something else? Should I have a different direction? I really don't know. And I really need to know.